어떻게해야합니까? what should i do??

             SPM passed decades ago for me... Now, im going to face another exam. Although it ain't as tough as spm but i swear that i dont wanna fail any exam in my whole entire life... My first time test in college is coming.. Im damn nervous now...  I joined the class quite late due to some unreasonable reasons... I really scared that i might failed in the exam... Every exam mean soo much for me.. God, i need u now... Sometimes i do think of dropping the foundation course and take architecture.. But after think twice about it... Better dont.. For mommy and nanny sake... I must be strong... I gotta be a great doctor... Come on, ziv!! Hwaiting...

             I was so down for past few days.. First, it's about hostel.. It's very terrible! I cant study here with all the noise and untidiness here... I cant stand anymore.. And according to my mommy, i can only move once i finish my time test.. Arh...it's killing me from inside... Secondly, it's about class... I never had this kinda feeling before.. In the class, i feel that im the most stupid one.. Especially during Maths class.. I am so lost... I dont like Maths since i was young... But it is very important... I MUST score it... 

            I tried to hide all my true feelings al this while...but i get caught by my housemates last few days... I cant hide it anymore and i burst eventually... So, i decided to phoned my mommy.. Talk to her.. Cry to her.. She is my mommy...xoxo... She asked me to start writing diary again and do the things that i like in order to released all my pressure.. And i decided to drink Starbucks and start blogging again... Its kinda of a release after i tell it out loud here... fuhh!!

           A~hak!! Revision time... Tonight time-table is maths... Ziv, change ur mind-set!! Maths is fun!! Starbucks rock Ziv's world!! Hwaiting... ^^